Friends

I found out tonight that one of my dear friends still checks this and reads every once in a while! Cheers to him! There are just some friendships that never fade away even after years of losing contact we still hug and act like the craziest best friends in the world! And that is what true best friends are. I have many many best friends, one bestest friend in the whole world and one cayenne best friend but then I have my best friends, they come in all different types. Tim my craziest best brother friend, Conner my skater, gamer best brother friend, austin my inner child buddy, dori my talking beat friend, cortni my role model and inspiring best friend, becca my gamer BFF, Sam my perfect guy best friend, Courtney my fiery red head BFF, so so ever many more..  And my feeling is that those I call my best friends are those that are always with me even when not beside me. If your name is not in that list please know that does not mean you are not dear to me because you are I just have so many, I am blessed with a world full of friends and each time I look around more appear. My friends are my angels, they are part of the light that shines from me! 

To my friends, may you always know that I am here, I long to be close and spend lots of time with you. Know that any time you deserve some one I am here! Please do not hesitate to call when you're bored I will create the time to see you. You are more than my friend you are my angel, thank you thank you thank you for being my friend!

Heart...

Can't you stop your heart from breaking?before it was a sudden break, like dropping a plate or bowl this time it's like some one is chipping it away!! Please just drop it and let me start healing! I can't heal with some one chipping away, because once I heal abit another chunk gets chipped away leaving me straining to heal that bit.... I want to run.. But I won't let myself.. I told my self not this time not again stay til the end, and I am too stubborn to give in and run even tho it hurts so so bad!! Stupid girl for falling in love again.

Every day is a new beginning

Inspiration, that is what I deserve to be. I want to touch the world. I have a light that shines so brightly in me and I want others to feel that light.
Every day is a new beginning.
In this thought.
Hello I am Bellah. My name is Rebekah, but every one calls me Bellah. I AM a beautiful, radiant, powerful woman of light! I live with my boyfriend Mario and I am good with that. I know that I was taught differently, I have no regrets in this though. I work with handicap adults and love the light they show. I talk more than a quiet person. I enjoy eating the food that my boyfriend prepares me, so I have beautiful curves!! haha I am a happy go lucky girl living a happy life.

I...

I want my love to want to learn every lil thing about me. Like;
I roll my clothes not fold.
I love to play the piano but I have no clue how to play a piano.
I never wear matching socks.
I love sundresses and ribbons in my hair.
I dance around the house when no one is home.
I hum in my sleep.
I love to cook but hardly ever cook for my self.
I inspire.
I love every one til it hurts.
I love quiet moments of peace.
I am naturally blonde.
I love sunshine and rain.
I dream all the time.
I love snuggling and kisses.
I enjoying dressing up and going out.

Love until it hurts.

Love until it hurts.- mother Teresa
Well I live and in the end it hurts. I don't want to say goodbye ever. I guess love does not mean you get to spend forever with the one you love, you do get to love them forever.
I never really thought I would grow to love some one so deeply. I did tho. I could stay like this forever but time is running out. He asked me to promise him that I would stay in this home... I promised. It's going to hurt tho. More than ever. It makes since tho I mean I live here, it's close to my job I have friends around here. I love him tho.

Make Your Dream Come True Day

Make Your Dream Come True Day gives you the opportunity to do something to realize your goals and dreams. Whatever your dreams are, they usually don't come true without some effort on your part. So, today is the perfect opportunity to do something about it.

On this day do something, anything, to move in the direction of achieving your dreams. Sure, sometimes it takes several steps to accomplish them. So view today as a time to get started on them. With a little effort, they will come true!

Complicated

I am never going to change for any one. But I might think over what they say a bit. Like am I too nice? Too level headed? Would I be more interesting if I lost my cool every once in a while? I don't see it. I mean that's what causes problems right? So that is why I never yell or scream or really show my anger. Plus most of the time the reason I am mad is stupid and does not matter in the big picture. Perhaps I will lose it one day... But it is going to take a lot to push me over because I have handled a lot and each thing makes me stronger... I have had friends call me names, spread rumors and back stab me. Guys have cheated on me, make me feel worthless, even hit me and left me. I am stronger because of it and if I do fall apart on you it just goes to show you that I love you because I am putting up a fight. But even if I don't put up a fight it does not mean I do not love you , for it could be that I love you so there for I walked away to get out of your way of you finding your happiness. It is complicated. Really it is!