I love him more

When I am with you I feel that I am Made for you. I look at you and want to spend forever with. I know you are scared, confused and searching for some peace of mind I am doing the same thing. I am scared I have to hold my self together all the time because really I just want to run away.I am the best at running away and yet for once in my life I know that if I run I would not be able to heal the broken heart it would leave me with. I gave up all others to be with you. Many guys still notice me on the trax and buses but I happily tell them I am taken and that I plan on staying in love with the one I am with from now til the end of time. I Miss you. I am scared. I love you. All my feelings sprawled out here in my blog just like before. I know that I have my many flaws and you are going to have to take some time to get used to them. I am going to have to get used to staying some place. 

To stay is the scariest thing for me. I am used to running and as of lately having some ones arms to run to I don't want any ones arms other than his.Why would I settle for earth when I can have heaven?

I love him More. 

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away 
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms