Monday, September 24, 2012

The wonders of falling in love.

I told my self I was done. After Shane I was ok with dating a few guys but to be full on honest all they wanted from me was that lil 3 letter word and when they did not get that they left. Sooo finally I was like "forget it" and started out into this world to make some friends boys girls any one. I went online even to see what I could find being that I am not really sure with this area, being new still and all.
I told myself that this time I would not fall for any one. That this was my time to be single.
Well every one used to tell me that love would find me when I was least expecting it. They were right....
So there I was agreeing to meet this handsome young man at a park to be "just friends". Now you all know me I am a stubborn turd just like my dad, so when I say that some one is going to be " just a friend" I mean it! Well this time I don't think any amount of stubbornness or even being a cynic could stop what happened that night. As I walked across the grass as saw him standing there waiting for me, After like an hour or even two. I knew. It hit me an odd feeling almost like the feeling as if I had just changed my life completely and I could not take back what i just did. I smiled and greeted him and I saw forever in his streetlight lit eyes. Love at fist sight? Well I think I might just believe in it now. That night I suddenly just wanted to be with him always.
Love had found me when I least expected it, when I had stopped looking it snuck up behind me and swept me off my feet. God must know what he is doing since I was ready to give up completely on the idea of love. I have always been a romantic at heart but I never thought any of that romance would ever happen to me. Well I was wrong. Now I know the wonders of falling in love.
1. Two hands can fit like puzzle pieces. And I swear its like they are drawn to each other. I never want to let go of his hand.
2. A kiss can really take your breath away. I have never had a kiss actually make my heart leap and my breath catch in my throat. Matt loves to take my breath away.
3. Love does make you do crazy things. Its only because you can only think of that person you are in love with so you don't pay quite as close attention to what is going on around you.
4. 5 days can seem like years, and weekends can go bye in a flash.
5. Soul mates... well Love can make even me believe in soul mates.
6. You know when you know. It does not matter if you date a year or even 3 weeks when you know you love some one and want to spend the rest of your life and eternity with that person, you know!
7. You want to smile all the time.
8. You can find home in the arms of another. :)

For years I have been living the life of a gypsy, moving from place to place looking for a place to really call home. I looked in houses and buildings, cities and towns but until I laid in Matt's arms I had never really felt that since of home. Home is with him. It is where I belong, I know now that he was what I was looking for as I searched for "home"