Friends

I found out tonight that one of my dear friends still checks this and reads every once in a while! Cheers to him! There are just some friendships that never fade away even after years of losing contact we still hug and act like the craziest best friends in the world! And that is what true best friends are. I have many many best friends, one bestest friend in the whole world and one cayenne best friend but then I have my best friends, they come in all different types. Tim my craziest best brother friend, Conner my skater, gamer best brother friend, austin my inner child buddy, dori my talking beat friend, cortni my role model and inspiring best friend, becca my gamer BFF, Sam my perfect guy best friend, Courtney my fiery red head BFF, so so ever many more..  And my feeling is that those I call my best friends are those that are always with me even when not beside me. If your name is not in that list please know that does not mean you are not dear to me because you are I just have so many, I am blessed with a world full of friends and each time I look around more appear. My friends are my angels, they are part of the light that shines from me! 

To my friends, may you always know that I am here, I long to be close and spend lots of time with you. Know that any time you deserve some one I am here! Please do not hesitate to call when you're bored I will create the time to see you. You are more than my friend you are my angel, thank you thank you thank you for being my friend!

Heart...

Can't you stop your heart from breaking?before it was a sudden break, like dropping a plate or bowl this time it's like some one is chipping it away!! Please just drop it and let me start healing! I can't heal with some one chipping away, because once I heal abit another chunk gets chipped away leaving me straining to heal that bit.... I want to run.. But I won't let myself.. I told my self not this time not again stay til the end, and I am too stubborn to give in and run even tho it hurts so so bad!! Stupid girl for falling in love again.

Every day is a new beginning

Inspiration, that is what I deserve to be. I want to touch the world. I have a light that shines so brightly in me and I want others to feel that light.
Every day is a new beginning.
In this thought.
Hello I am Bellah. My name is Rebekah, but every one calls me Bellah. I AM a beautiful, radiant, powerful woman of light! I live with my boyfriend Mario and I am good with that. I know that I was taught differently, I have no regrets in this though. I work with handicap adults and love the light they show. I talk more than a quiet person. I enjoy eating the food that my boyfriend prepares me, so I have beautiful curves!! haha I am a happy go lucky girl living a happy life.

I...

I want my love to want to learn every lil thing about me. Like;
I roll my clothes not fold.
I love to play the piano but I have no clue how to play a piano.
I never wear matching socks.
I love sundresses and ribbons in my hair.
I dance around the house when no one is home.
I hum in my sleep.
I love to cook but hardly ever cook for my self.
I inspire.
I love every one til it hurts.
I love quiet moments of peace.
I am naturally blonde.
I love sunshine and rain.
I dream all the time.
I love snuggling and kisses.
I enjoying dressing up and going out.

Love until it hurts.

Love until it hurts.- mother Teresa
Well I live and in the end it hurts. I don't want to say goodbye ever. I guess love does not mean you get to spend forever with the one you love, you do get to love them forever.
I never really thought I would grow to love some one so deeply. I did tho. I could stay like this forever but time is running out. He asked me to promise him that I would stay in this home... I promised. It's going to hurt tho. More than ever. It makes since tho I mean I live here, it's close to my job I have friends around here. I love him tho.

Make Your Dream Come True Day

Make Your Dream Come True Day gives you the opportunity to do something to realize your goals and dreams. Whatever your dreams are, they usually don't come true without some effort on your part. So, today is the perfect opportunity to do something about it.

On this day do something, anything, to move in the direction of achieving your dreams. Sure, sometimes it takes several steps to accomplish them. So view today as a time to get started on them. With a little effort, they will come true!

Complicated

I am never going to change for any one. But I might think over what they say a bit. Like am I too nice? Too level headed? Would I be more interesting if I lost my cool every once in a while? I don't see it. I mean that's what causes problems right? So that is why I never yell or scream or really show my anger. Plus most of the time the reason I am mad is stupid and does not matter in the big picture. Perhaps I will lose it one day... But it is going to take a lot to push me over because I have handled a lot and each thing makes me stronger... I have had friends call me names, spread rumors and back stab me. Guys have cheated on me, make me feel worthless, even hit me and left me. I am stronger because of it and if I do fall apart on you it just goes to show you that I love you because I am putting up a fight. But even if I don't put up a fight it does not mean I do not love you , for it could be that I love you so there for I walked away to get out of your way of you finding your happiness. It is complicated. Really it is!

Challenge for Jan11

Challenge,Tomorrow , find some quiet moments for yourself.
Have you ever found yourself in a quiet moment where you just sit back and let yourself slow down, breathe, think, daydream and live in that moment. I always loved my quiet moments that's where I get my best thoughts, my
brightest ideas. It is where I meditate and often have my most beautiful moments.

I have found that I love meditation. For me it is relaxation. I have learned to relax.

Compliment someone today!!!

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” ~Leo Buscaglia

National cuddle up day!

Yay!! So on this amazing holiday I plan to take full advantage of this day!! I am going to cuddle up to Mario as much as I can and also when he is at work I will cuddle up in a blanket have a cup of tea and watch sleepless in Seattle since it is one romance I have never seen except for the end.
So today take a moment and cuddle the one you love or at least in a soft blanket or " cuddle up with a good book" or a movie

Life with Mario

Cooking; I am so used to guys who send me in to the kitchen and soon forget all about me. I love that Mario is at my side cooking up a storm or at least there to help with any thing at any moment. He is always coming up with amazing ideas. Such as our favorite lobster salad. It is lobster shredded and mixed with cream cheese some seasoning hot peppers and carrots wrapping in romane hearts. Brilliant!! And then just today he made this amazing soup that was so filling and just delightful. He amazes me each and ever day more and more.

Woman

The power of a woman. I love men I do. And there is many woman that I admire. Why is it tho that so many allow others to push them around? I used to be that way. I was abused in the past and for the longest time I let that rule my life. Always fearful that a hand would be raised at me and just accepting that " that is what I deserved". Then I learned something. I learned to love myself and in that I learned the power of a woman. I learned that I am beautiful. I never believed I was a beauty in fact I was convinced I was a fat unholy awkward girl with nothing to give to the world. Then I saw. I gave thought to what would happen if I never was here. I even spoke to some about it. My parents would have never had a child until my baby sister but then would my baby sister be here if my mom would have never had me for she could have given up on having kids all together. That is just an example. And I am not the only one it is the same way for us all. It pains me when I see those that do not see. They do not see the magic they posses. Each person I see is so beautiful it amazes me. And they don't see what they deserve. Pure love and happiness. They deserve the best of the world. I learned this for my self. I deserve a man that will never hurt me. I deserve never to settle. And this is what I wish for is that ever one can see that guy, gal, boy , girl, woman or man. Stand up for your self please. If she treats you like luggage, walks all over you, hits you or plays mind games that hurt you walk away find your better. If he yells at you, make you feel worthless, beats you or forgets you leave! Find your prince! Stand up for your self! There is magic in you!! Don't let some one take that away.
Look at what us woman do. We take on pain each month. We have all this emotion that we cary and really we never let the world see it all. They could not handle it all. Many many women have shown their power. We get to stand tall. And for the men that read. I still love you but I do not and will not fear for. I need not to. I am one powerful woman. Show your girl the power they have in them.

Inner conflict

You know I spend so much time in my relationships worrying rather I make the guy happy or if he will tire of me and leave me. Well it is about time for me to let that go. Why should I worry about something like that? No I don't mean to sound snotty and conceived but I know I am beautiful, well most days.. Haha and I make friends so easily. I could not ever begin to count the people I have showed up in their lives in a positive way and they now consider me a friend. I have nothing to worry about for I shall never be alone. Not in friendships or relationships for I am a beautiful, loving, powerful ray of light. I know that I have guys who would love a chance to date me, and all are great in their own ways but you see I have learned to follow my heart and it led me to Mario. I can't tell you if he is my forever and I really don't mind not knowing. I love him, I also know that if time does take us to a goodbye I will never regret it. Never for I am learning every day I am enjoying every moment every sweet kiss. I also know that I have the world before me and the power to take me any where.
Often I have people trying to change me, saying that I need to get mad more ore do some thing mean. I admit that some times I wish I could curl up in a ball and turn off and just be sad for a while but guess what that is not me, I am Bellah. And well Bellah is pure love and light no matter how dark the world gets around her. Last year I learned a lot about my self in impact training, but I also know that I have always been like this just not as free. See I am like a big ball of light. Haha yup that's me. I am kind, sweet and hard to anger ( tho warning those are the ones you really do not want to anger for well we are a big ball of fire then haha) My heart has been broken a few more times than a lot but I have learned, grown, taught and still glow. This might sound odd but at times I can literally feel my eyes glow haha. I know why it is that many times I do not get mad, I have learned to wait things out let my heart feel things out, think it over and a few hours later if I am over it really or I sit and talk things out calmly. If I am still mad most of the time I realize how silly it seems to back track to the past when I can just move forward and keep shining. Another thing I have learned is to take a step back and see how it sizes up. Like take this for example, say the other day Mario upset me by saying some thing I did not agree with well I now take a look at this and ask my self, is this little thing enough to end my relationship? Does this deserve my worrying? Why should I let this ruin my happy mood. And then most of the time I am good. I have noticed that most the conflicts in my life are with in me and the person my mind is blaming it on such as " she called me a mean name" or " he said some thing I don't like" has nothing to do with it in the end. It is just me having an inner struggle and I am the only one who can solve that conflict. So why should I drag others into it.
I strive for inner peace.

Dinner tonight

I want to cook something tonight that will impress and I will have fun cooking I love to cook. So I went and opened the freezer to find a surprise since I have to post these at the bitten so take a look!
Haha it is a new thing for me to find broken glass in the fridge. But hey I have learned how to clean splattered soda off of freezer walls as your sponge likes to freeze to the side. Now my only dilemma is what to cook for dinner...
Something yum! I am not lacking in any type of food. Just ideas.
I want to try breaded shrimp. And I think some baked chicken.
I am taking and dipping shrimp in a light egg and bread batter and frying on the stove top. For the chicken I think a tomato and basil soft flour batter. I know I am a nerd sitting here blogging about dinner plans. Just goes to show you I am a regular every day woman who does everyday things like cooking, cleaning and soon have a normal every day job. Not that you thought I was any thing but normal.
Ok now that I am done explaining that I am an everyday woman lets go on,

Thursday night breaded shrimp.

3 eggs beaten and in a small bowl
2 cups bread crumbs in separate bowl
I cup flour in Same bowl as crumbs mix well
Oil
12 large frozen shrimp

Dip shrimp in egg then flour and bread crumb mixer and then fry in light oil.

Tomato basil baked chicken

4 pieces of chicken
1 cup flour
3 tablespoons mrs. Dash tomato basil seasoning.
1 teaspoon black pepper
4 tablespoons butter
Tomato
Basil
3 tablespoons sour cream
Heat and mix butter and sour cream in sauce pan on med. heat. Mix flour and seasoning in a med bowl. Dip chicken in butter and sour cream mixture. Cover with flour mixture. Top with slice of fresh tomato, basil leafs and pepper.Bake at 350 til meat is done.

For Jill

Dear Jill, do you know how beautiful you are? No I am not flirting I promise haha I have my man and am happy there. But for some reason I thought these would be useful to you... They are old post I have written in the past and so true to this day!!! More Beauty Tips from Bellah
If your reading this, your beautiful and everything is going to be okay.
Girls Grow on Trees! Oh wait that is Twigs and sicks. Sorry more and more girls are trying to look like sticks that I got slightly missed up.
If a man want to love a stick send him to the woods there are lots there for him to pick out. How can a guy like hugging a woman whose bones are likely to stab him.While looking up some stuff on the Internet I also ran across an article that states that some men also find a small potbelly more natural looking and thus making her more attractive. I don't believe every I read but I can also see where this article is coming from. It states "Men like women to feel soft and curvy, so a little potbelly can be a turn-on and give a woman that natural look. "If she's not 'perfect', then he doesn't feel he has to be either."
Did you know that many men find no make up more attractive than when you wear tons of make up. Yes a little eyeliner here or lip gloss there is nice. But some men find it kinda a turn off when they kiss you and end up with half a pound of bright lipstick smeared all over them.
Girls you strive to have a thin thin face and big full lips lips end up looking like a Duck.
“Happiness is the most attractive accessory a young woman can have.
The world prizes body-baring “beauty.” Hollywood markets it, advertisers exploit it, and the media promote it. The Lord, however, “seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7). The kind of a man a virtuous woman wants to marry also “seeth not” as the natural man seeth. He will be drawn to the true beauty she radiates from a pure and cheerful heart. The same is true for a young woman looking for a virtuous young man." ~Unknown
I often feel like a red Tulip, "normal" looking, lost in a Meadow of more stunning beautiful bright yellow. But If all the rest of the world is yellow all the same would not you be the one most noticed? Not for your so thought " Plainness" But for the beauty in your difference. Why would any guy want to date some one who looks just like the last person he dated or the same as every other girl in the world. Every one is trying to be just like every one else! Fighting to have the in clothes and the in style of Make-up, hair styles and every thing. Well what if you stop fighting for that and beat them. The others are the plain ones, They make them selves plain by blending in with the others, While you have a beauty that shines out pass them. You are a wonderful vibrant Red Tulip in the sea of plain dull Yellow ones.

For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
 For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
 For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
 For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
 For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.



So dear Jill, know that you are very beautiful and very lucky to have the guy you do. Let him show you his sweet romantic side for you, you deserve a prince, for you are as lovely ad a princess. So take care until we meet again.


~Bellah

It is 2013

And ya!!!

New years eve... Make overs and seeing Jenn's kids!!

Some pictures from my day..