For mom

I get to find you some of these lol. I am sure that they would turn your milk colors too!!

The gift of me!

Love is such an odd thing. I have now felt a love so strong that I was swept away to a world that left me i a constant waltz. But some times love ends with heartbreak. Not really ending, for I still love him very deeply but I know now it was not to be, and tho it can hurt from time to time I will not look back on it with weeping eyes but the eyes of one who has learned and grown just that much more. The lessons this lost love has taught me is that I do not need any one to make me whole, to keep me safe nor make me happy. I am capable of that my self.  I am a powerful woman of light and I can stand on my own two feet and face the world with my head held high. I do not need a man to hold me and care for me. I have always been blessed with knowing how to take care of myself and being the one that got to do that, but before I thought of it as a burden like " poor me I have to care for me there is no one here to be here for me" well the thing is I had all I ever needed I had me. I just never new what a great gift that was. The gift of me. Not only do i get to be there for me but just by being here for me I am also there for those around me. I inspire and lift the spirits of those around me. Yes I deserve to some day have some one love me. I deserve some day to be with some one that I share a love with even deeper than that I shared with the one that I just ended a romantic relationship with. Who knows, there is a chance that I have already met that powerful man of light and then it could be that I meet him tomorrow or even down the road farther but I live in the moment not the past nor the future and so therefor when he shows up in my life as that love it will be in the perfect moment.
I am happy with my life for I am a great creator and I can create it the way I deserve for it to be. I know that I create already carefree and childlike energy for others to live in that are near me for those that around me begin to experience their inner child begin to dance and play once more. I am as a light breeze that dances through a child's hair as she chases a butterfly. I am as the water that playfully flows past the stones inviting little boys to come and search for frogs. I am as the sun light that encircles the teen girl who sits daydreaming on the hill. I am the child that chases the butterfly and searches the water for frogs, I am the young teen who dreams of knights and first love. I am beauty I see around me, the love that flows so freely and peace that radiates in the heart. I am light and I am love. My father in heaven created me as such. Because he created me I am also part of him and he is part of me, and by that I have the power to create my life as I deserve it to be. The life I choose to create for me is that of beauty and love and peace. I chose to live in abundance and joy. I create all these things.
You know I can see the growth and change in me and it is literally immeasurable. For one thing I love my life so much more. I am sure my readers can see some of the changes in me. I also know that I was a good actress though. My blog has pretty much always had uplifting things written in it along with the random but to be honest with you I did not live by the things I wrote they were things my heart knew but my mind got in the way. for I write from my heart. I have always been blessed with that gift. haha that must have been why I loved to write English papers that had feeling but hated reports with only fact. Now I live in my heart and what a great world it is that I see.

New life

I do not blog as often because blogging is not on my top priority list any more. There is so much more to my life now! I have a job! I have a job now. I work with adult handicap. I have fun doing arts and crafts with them! I have been loving my trainings and  learning so much I am a total different.  I am me. I have learned that it is time for me to live my life and stop living in the past and future and live in the now. I love my life and I get to live my life!! In fact I learned that before now I was taking life away from my self. And now I am like totally in love with my life. New things in my life.
~Shane: He is the man I am in love with. He knows how to make me smile when all I want to do is cry. I wake up and smile because I know he loves me and is committed to me. When he is not with me I curl up with his pillow and fall asleep. Ya those romance books and movies they were right. I have fallen head over hills in love and the nice thing is he caught me. And He will never let me fall.
 
~ I am living in my heart: I see things as news or good news. There is no bad news. I look at things in a whole new light and I am open to new things. By living in my heart I have no fear I am as carefree as a child I know that I can do any thing. The walls around my heart have been taken down and I can love deeper and for the first time I can feel the love of others in full. haha I have never cried so much in my life and for the most part all those tears have been happy tears of joy in the love I have felt and the happiness I have found just here right now in myself. I am Pure love. 
~Being honest and open: I speak my words of truth when I have something I get to share with some one else they are sure to hear it. At first it was way scary to just say some things that i got to open up and share with people but I have seen how it has assisted in my life and peace has filled where the fear use to be. It has brought me closer to those in my life.



~ The way I see my self: no more do I look at my self and say things like I am fat or not good enough. Cause guess what? I am perfect as I am. And because I have accepted me as who I am and love me for all that i am those things I used to believe about myself are fading! I am even slimming down. I feel good about my self and by loving myself I know how to love others as well. I treat my self with more love and respect and others do the same!
Who am I?

I AM a beautiful radiant powerful woman of light!

Why am I here?

By being a beautiful radiant powerful woman of light I bring forth passion love and peace creating abundance joy and openness in the world. AND SO IT IS

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15 things to give up to find happiness

I have learned a lot of this same stuff over the last few months. Yes I am still live!!! lol I just have not blogged in a while.

1. GIVE UP YOUR NEED TO ALWAYS BE RIGHT

 There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. GIVE UP YOUR NEED FOR CONTROL

Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. GIVE UP ON BLAME

 Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. GIVE UP YOUR SELF-DEFEATING SELF-TALK

 Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. GIVE UP YOUR LIMITING BELIEFS

about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!

“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. GIVE UP COMPLAINING

 Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. GIVE UP THE LUXURY OF CRITICISM

Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. GIVE UP YOUR NEED TO IMPRESS OTHERS

Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take off all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. GIVE UP YOUR RESISTANCE TO CHANGE

 Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. GIVE UP LABELS

 Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. GIVE UP ON YOUR FEARS

Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. GIVE UP YOUR EXCUSES

Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. GIVE UP THE PAST

I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. GIVE UP ATTACHMENT

This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. GIVE UP LIVING YOUR LIFE TO OTHER PEOPLE’S EXPECTATIONS

Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.