Days that go by

I really have not had the time to write here in a few days on the 26th I went to St George with my best friend Aveda and her sister. We had spent the night before playing the Wii and having fun. I need to practice my video game skills haha. Going to the city was a nice get away from normal life to enjoy a day in the city. We watched a movie and had dinner and did some shopping.
 The 27th I spent most of the day writing up a talk on the Holy Ghost for my cousins baptism. It was stressful.

Talk






The 28th I went to church with my mom and dad. I had spent the night at the night in my own bed but with Alveda is used to sleeping in that bed all on her own and like took it over there was hardly and room for Willie and I. ( for those that don't know Willie is my dog half Chiwawa and half Italian Greyhound) Sunday night our ward had a family home evening night where every one brought a presentation for " search for good" I brought some of my bottled herbs that had some of their benefits written on them. After I was kinda asked to teach a enrichment night on Herbs.

The 29th Alveda had spent the night and we hung out around the house made cookies and watched a movie.

Today I did not want to wake up. My dreams were heavenly. Why do I dream on of a prince coming and sweeping me off my feet still. I want to serve a mission and I refuse for my childish romantic dreams to distract me from my mission. Can you make your self only dream about mission stuff? Is it normal to dream of falling  in love?

Random quotes

" I don't want a handsome prince I want a guy with an ugly face!"~Bellah as watching Beastly
" I would not live there K hill may fall on me" ~ Bellah and Alveda pretend house shopping

You know I have had many guys flirt with me as of late that must not know me very well. They have called me Sexy and Babe. I am not one to much care for those pet names.
Sexy
Baby
HotStuff
Babe
Hot chick
and others like that are just not that flattering to me.
What ever happened to guys calling girls
Beautiful
lovely
Dear
love
Sweetie
darling
and flattering names like that.

I guess I could just be old style but thats just who I am. I mean one of the guys I have been talking to is very sweet and all but he calls me Sexy and that to me just makes me not feel the same for him.. I have told him that being called Sexy is not really some thing that I like and he insists on calling me it. If any guy is to win my heart he is going to have to learn that the list of names above that I do not prefer better only be a once in a while thing, perhaps after we have dated after a while. Yup Yup.

A love so secret

I believe I just realized today that I love a friend of mine more than a friend. I thought I had liked him at one time but I kept it quiet and pushed it from my mind because I guess i was afraid and well he is just so awesome of a guy that I was happy just being his friend. Plus Stupid so called Guy best friend of mine at the time thought he could control me by playing with my emotions and at the time I really thought there was some thing there! Back to this guy i like. I realize more and more I think about him tho we hardly talk since we are so distant. But he is amazing and I find joy in thinking of him. I guess it was a love so secret that I did not even know until now. Too bad nothing can be done about it now, oh well.

A day

So I am a blabber mouth when it comes to writing at times. I can write tons about nothing at times!But if you are reading this then it must mean you like to hear me Blabber!
So today Alveda and I watched a wonderful movie, "Beastly". I am so like the girl in that movie! We got bored after I cooked dinner so we went out for frozen yogurt and then went hiking up to our rock. Ya That's right we have a rock. Its more like a large bolder. Well over the years people have carved names and dates all over it and well our senior year Alveda and I spent lots of time up on that Rock and at  one time carved " RM+AB=BFF 09" We sat up there for hours today and watched clouds. It was really nice to just sit and talk like we did before we left our teenage years. When we became adults who have to worry about jobs, bills, what we are going to do next and just plain simple life.

Basil

Tonight I gathered Basil and Sage to put on the dryer. Basil is good for Stomach cramps, relief from the common cold, influenza, whooping cough, asthma, bronchitis,and sinus infections. Sage is good for to relieve discomfort of measles, dizziness, colds,fever,and headaches also can be used for snakebites, rashes, dandruff , and memory improvement.

Sage

There is me the herb nerd!!

Kanab Moments

Kanab is not all bad. Here is some random things that make living in this small town unique and some times amazing.
When n the way to drop off a job app you top by Judds Auto shop just to run in and hug your Tony. Tony has known me since birth in fact he won a candy bar and soda for guessing my weight when I was born. Funny thing the soda and Candy bar was bought from Judds Auto shop ( his Shop). When ever you see the fritoLay truck as you go into a store you look for your uncle Brian so you can say hello even tho really he is not even your uncle. You see your Grandpa Heydorn sitting out watching his garden grow like every year ( again not really related but that does not matter to you) when you go to the store and end up talking to 3 or fore people that know more about what is going on in your life then some of your closest friends ( some you dont even know the names of) When you call to make an appointment with some one and they answer the phone saying " Hello Rebekah What can I do for you" and you did not even know they knew you! Thats just life in a small town like Kanab.

Bedhead

I am not a morning person, even tho my bed is not a really comfy bed and at night it takes me forever to fall asleep, my bed tends to hold me down in the morning. I guess I am really the type that can sleep any where. when I was in high school there was a time when i did not have a bed I spent 4 months sleeping on a pile of blankets in my room. It was just before Christmas when my bishop came to visit and came to my room to get me he asked " sister where is your bed?" I stated I did not have one and he asked how long that I had been sleeping on the floor. I told him and he told me that a student must have a bed so that they can better study in class. So that year for Christmas I got a Bed from the church and boy was I thrilled. But I think that learning how to sleep on a hard floor prepared me for sleeping on the cots at the camp I worked at and also the beds at college. So I am grateful for that time I had no bed.

Cowgirl up

Western legends was a wonderful time. I got to spend time with my best friend and her family. We ran around town buying old fashion soda and looking at all the fun booths. I had feathers put in my hair! ( transformed from Cowgirl to Indian. I look good as both but better as an Indian :D) When we got tired we played the Wii. I need practice at video games!
I tried going to two different country dances seems I really have no where around here to use my country swing knowledge every one at the dances were married or old enough to be my grandparents. So needless to say I really did not have fun at the dances. This really depressed me. Some times I feel like I am the only Young single adult that leaves her home other than for work. I know i am getting ready to go on a mission but I hate saying that i have almost not been on a date ( where the guy has asked ) in a year.

Well for those of you that have never attended a Western legends ( only held in Kanab Utah )
Here are some pics to give you a taste

Me and a friend fought slightly on if this thing ran.. He won! It does run!

 Only a true redneck would use a old bathtub for a horse trough! oh that is 99.9% of kanab 

 Tee-pees set up in the center of town. And gun fights on main street. Yeeha! 

 Aw is it not so cute! 

 its mama not so much with those huge horns staring you down. They usually run a herd of long horn down main street for a parade .. not this year so this is as good as is got 

 Best Soda any one has tasted. Been warned tho to not leave root beer, birchBeer of Cream soda in the sun to long or you may just get a lil drunk!  

 used to see live of these every where!

 what is a fair with out blow up toys for the lil ones 

After a long day of running around you may just end up looking like a bunch of hobos sitting by the only alley way in kanab ( that is only like 15- 20 feet long  but haunted) 

The Butterfly

If you are wondering why all the butterflies. Butterflies keep showing up in my life as a child I loved seeing butterflies, when I turned 18 my mom told me she was giving me my wings and I instantly thought of a butterfly, and then many people say that I am like a butterfly, I flutter and glide along for one place to another. I lover being in groups but then I like my freedom to go and do what i like. At times I let the wind take me where it blows and others I fight against the wind with all my might. Some of the guys that have been interesting in me have said that I am like a free butterfly, hard to capture and hard to keep when caught. Thus I am the butterfly! 

The Bunny farmers GrandDaughter

Moving back home from college was harder than I ever thought it would be. I never thought I would be the type to leave home so fast and then not want to return back home. It was two days after my high school graduation that I packed up and left for work at a girls scout camp 600 miles away from home. I thought that that was the bravest thing I ever did. I was wrong.
         College was wonderful to me. I made so many friends. I never thought that I would make so many friends of have any one love me as much as my friends there. I started dating and well had a few boy friends. The typical college girls life. Then came the good byes. I chose to come back home after 2 years of being away to Spend time with my family and earn money for a LDS Mission.
       Returning home was the brave thing. I returned a different person completely I had left here no one and returned as Bellah. I well known girl at snow College, loved my many friends returning to a town that was completely different. I had thought that it would only be a few months. Again I was wrong.
      School starts this next week and well I have not even started my Papers for my mission. Seeing all my friends head back to school hurts more than I thought it would. College life was the perfect life for me the butterfly. I became the Bunny farmers granddaughter.
      I moved in with my grandparents to help them out after my grandmother slipped in mud and broke her leg. My grandmother raises bunnies for food. She also has a large garden. I love being in the garden tho the   sun is not my friend. I love going out and picking fresh herbs and learning what herbs are good for such as there is an herb named Comfrey  that can be used for anti ageing and Anise that tastes like black liquorice  that can help treat the common cold, pneumonia, influenza, bronchitis and also increase the amount of a nursing mothers milk. I am the bunny farmers Granddaughter and studying Herbs.

         I miss my friends so much and there has been no bigger challenge than having just the amount of money I would need for one more semester at college in the arms of dear friends than here wishing they were here, but knowing that that money is for a grander purpose than me being where I want to be.

Here I am

I am a 21 girl and this is my life. I know that this will not be any thing great but it is mine!