My love life. So I know every one is most likely wondering what happened with me and Matt and why all of a sudden I am with a handsome black man named Mario. Well me and Matt did not work out. Long story short he was too caught up in his ex and video games and I felt used forgotten and knew that I deserved better so I left. I had planned on staying single for like a few months, and living in kanab was the perfect location for me seeing how well there is no guys who want to date me in kanab at least not ones bold enough to date me. So I went to kanab to live.. And stayed for two weeks. You see I realized something, a month into dating Matt I had fallen in love with some one else, the man I met 7 1/2 months before as I was singing karaoke. He had bumped into me called me princess and well made me mad fori thought he was saying it as if I was nothing more than a spoiled lol princess but one thing he got my attention. He silently admired me from afar learning about me. He knew more than my boyfriend at the time and never even really got told those things about me he knew I used to dance by how I would stand at times, knew my eye color and how they change he knew me. And well he was my prince hidden as a guy I thought would never see me when he saw me better than any one else.
I am the happiest I have ever been with any of those guys I thought I was going to spent my life with. I am not going to say that Mario is the one I will be with forever or any thing like that because you see I am tired of playing that game, saying oh Jay is the one I will be with I will never lover another more than he, Ashten is my one true love I am meant for him, wait Shane is my love and I will give up every thing to be his, Matt is the one I will marry and no man shall ever have my heart again. No more for no one can say what is to come. Yes I love Mario, I would be happy if I am with him for the rest of my life but I am going to enjoy the here and now not ponder and worry bout the future.
Here I am treated like a princess. I have been told by him that everything I do is lovely and just being told that I do feel lovely. I mean no I do not need to be told that but hey it is nice, make me blush like crazy. I feel so appreciated in all that I do, he thanks me for heating up some thing in the microwave for dinner!! Haha I am used to making full course dinners and having the guy criticize my efforts. Some times I wonder if this is all too good to be true but then I remind my self just to enjoy it and not worry. There is no use worrying over stuff like that!
Now I can't say I have found my one and only prince, but I can say I found a prince and at this time he is mine. I am happy here. I have learned a lot. Yes there are some things that deserve some work, but what relationship does not deserve abit of work. There is no going backwards only forward, up and away.
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