To those who are still reading!

I am so grateful for those that are even slightly interesting in what I have to say.




Lol and one last time!

PEACE.... LOVE.... I am Who I am!!

I know that quite a few read my blog and I do hope I never write any thing upon these pages that offend any one but also I hope it is known that you do not have to read my blogs if I do offend you.I am a Mormon. I am from the church of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day saints. It is who I am and who I always will be. I write out my true feelings here and I only invite those that want to know about the things that make me who I am and you know what more than 90% of who I am is LDS you know what not only more that 90% but more than100%. For I am Gods. With out him I would not be here so there fore more that what makes me me is my Lord!
I am friends with all. I have friends who are catholic and baptist and Jews and Atheist and other. I love them as my brothers and sisters. I will not point my fingers at them and speak bad of their beliefs I respect them for who they are but I do ask of them not to speak bad of my church. If you have fault with me hold it against me not my church. For I am the one that makes the flaws not the gospel that I believe in.
With that said I will go on with what I wish to say.

The saddest thing I have seen as of late is those I love letting go of the LDS church. Some have hoped to bring others with them, Some have torn others from the church. Tears fill my eyes as families are torn apart, Friends pushed away and hearts are left broken with out the healing hand of the lord to mend them. I watch in much pain as family members fight and I feel the physical pain of each blow as those I love let go of the iron rod and I lose sight of them in the fog and know them not. I do not know why it is but it is as if my heart is caving in. Truth be told I would rather live losing the one I loved so dearly a hundred times over than to see my family members torn so by others leaving the church and turning their words hash back on the beliefs that they know that their family still hold dear to their hearts. WHY! If you wish to leave the faith you are in than do so, But do not broadcast it to the world and speak bad of it before all even your dear family that still believes. And I am not just saying this for the Mormons! I am saying it for every one. If a person of any faith turned their back on the faith and then started to post things degrading that faith for every one to see the members of that family would still feel the pain and many would become offended and even angered. Look around you! Every one is rooting for world peace, even you! BUT how do you think that can come about when we can not have peace with in our own families!! It will not come about because You, He, She, They can not let people be different than them! Let him believe what ever he believes! That does not mean you can not still be friends with them and love them the same!! PEACE!! That is all I ask for! That a family split into two beliefs can still look each other in the eyes and love them for all they are, even the church that they belong to, That a person maybe able to go onto their Facebook or what ever and not see post slandering their beliefs and saying how great it is to be " Free" from some thing that I do not believe is keeping me Captive. LOVE! That is all we should do. Love that person that is different than you! Lave all in your view!
                                           

Time does Not wait for any of us

Last night I talked a bit with a class mate that just got back from his mission. I can't believe he was gone for two years! I cant believe how stupid I was back then. I wonder why I never really spoke to him in High School. I mean I guess it was probably because we were on the opposite sides of the invisible line that I never really understood. I wonder why that stopped me from making so many more friends back then, It does not stop me now. I don't care what invisible lines people say there is between groups of people we are all human and we all can use one more friend in our lives. You never know when that new friend of yours may just be the one that will be by your side when there is no one else that understands. Why can the world not see it. Why did I let that stand in my way before and still even at times now. So what if I was never the cheer leader, so what if every one says that I am in the geek group and that other person is one of the most popular people in the world, so what if I make a fool of my self by saying hello to some one that is said to be out of my league. I am me and they can like me or hate me for who I am, it does not change who I am in the end. We are all people, we each have a heart and mind. What does it matter what we look like on the out side. Can't a poor girl be friends with a rich boy? Cant some one that is chubby and plain be friends with some one skinny and beautiful? I say why not, you never know that would be the soul that you were best friends with in heaven. How would you feel if you return to heaven and realize that on earth you pushed away some one you had loved so much in heaven that God saw and decided to let you be together on earth because you thought them lower than you,
wow I kinda went off on that one.
I also spoke with a old best friend from middle school. She Has been married for a year and is pregnant! I don't know what to think about that! I mean wow!!! I can and cannot imagine my self the same. I mean I am not in that same stage in life so of course it is hard for me to imagine my self as being there. I some times like to day dream what it may be like, but the lord must have thought I should be older before i married for a lot of my friends are married that are in fact younger than me. I have to laugh for those that are my age that thought they would wait for a missionary the same age as we are already married and here the missionaries return. I guess it is really not that funny,, if i think of how heart broken those missionaries are when they see that the girl they thought they had is gone and now they must start from new. And those that read this don't get me wrong some times the girl does wait and some times they marry and have a wonderful married life, but often even when the girl wait the guy returns very different and then they are interested in the girls that they thought the would never date and that girl that waited is old news plus any ways the girl has changed as well. There is no way of living two years of any life and not changing at least in the slightest. I look back over my last two years and I know that if I had waited for some guy ( this would have never happened I did not believe and still  do not believe in waiting for guys while they are on their mission for it counts as a distraction) he would come back now and see that I am not the shy soft spoken girl he fell for. In fact he would realize that I am pretty mush different in every way! Even my taste of food is different. If he did not break up with me I may of even broke up with him because my attitude of who I date is different now too. I don't have to settle for losers like my first boyfriend back my senior year. Haha he was a divorced loser that drank and had the worst bad breath ever! No wonder I threw up on my first kiss ever the kids teeth were ORANGE. I know I only settled on dating him because he I thought I could not get any one better. Now thank goodness I know I am at least attractive enough to turn down orange teeth druggies.  I know that I will end up with at least a worthy priesthood holder.( with out orange teeth!!! )

We can not change back. Tho some times I wish I could.

New!

Like the new back ground and play list? Thought I would dress my blog up for the fall. We finally got a chance to bake some cookies! Did not decorate them but non-the-less they are made!
The fall chill hit last night. I am so happy!! I love Autumn!
I do miss not having my friends to spend it with. I have Alveda and she is wonderful but I just some times wish I could go hang out with some one. To hang out with a guy would be awesome!! haha Oh well.

Halloween's Past!

2008

Fairy and kitty

Mother nature, Fairy, mom, kitty, dad

2009

Scary girl in the Tunnels of terror 

Last year 

School Teacher and Pirate 

Poison Ivy

Egyptian princess ----> on this end 

Victorian Vampire?

Yes I was at least 4 different things last year 

Letters to God

        Why is it Adults do not write more letters to God? I know I do? My journal entries are just like letters to God. I don't know why I often feel like writing out a hand written letter to him. He is my father and I have so much to tell him, so many things to ask him. I pray but I also write out my thoughts for him. Then I often find that then the answers just appear. As I read back over my letters to God I can see the knowledge he has given me, and it reminds me of the things I know.

Forever hold a prayer in your heart for he hears 

them and it is a love letter to him, It is telling your 

Father that you still remember him, you still need him. 

And now the Halloween count down starts!!

To start off with Elisabeth and I watched Pooh' Heffalump Halloween Movie. It was really cute. I love the month of October. Some thing about this month makes me want to make caramel apples, dress in oranges and black and green, bake pumpkin chocolate chip cookies (By the way not to brag but I make the best!!) and brew apple spice cider( also can say I make some pretty good home made cider). I kinda think it is just because I love the fall! I love Fall and winter. Fall is full of crisp winds and livening smells.
I love the smell of pumpkin and spice. I love the bright colored leafs and the chill in the air. I love the warm treats fresh from the oven and the fun activities that stir.
Fall is full of almost a magic that seems to bring every one in. Its not like the magic of the christmastide or the spring joy its kinda like one that lingers in our hearts always. I would not mind meeting my love in the fall because fall whispers of change. A forever change. . the leafs turn and fall and tho in the spring new leafs take their place they are never the same. The tree is different. The drifting leafs have no remorse for leaving their high homes they gently glide to the ground wrisping around our feet and if we do not stop and take them in we forever will miss their wonder and beauty. Perhaps I am like a fallen leaf I float gently on a breeze in a wait for some one to see my unique beauty. I left my home above to glide below no fear of what would come. Tho I may be trampled on and even tossed aside. My beauty is so unique no other leaf has my colors my elegant shape nor my delicate freckles. I am unique in every way.

Pictures to Honor the start of the fall months. 

Happy Birthday to all those in October!

 Fall 2009 

Fall 2010